“A person needs at intervals to separate from family and companions and go to new places. One must go without familiars in order to be open to influences, to change.”
(Katharine Butler Hathaway)
...Once u're away u might see what you've had at "home". U might start realizing that going away doesn't make it better...It doesn't solve a Problem you've might had.
I thought so. I was tired..I thought, that everything would be easier if I'd just leave, but honestly it wasn't... I left the Country with almost nothing..but hope. I struggled a lot, but learned to life with it. Dealing with myself, my Emotions, my Hate against me...
Now its been 7 Month since i packed my Bag for the Journey i had ahead of me...I didn't had always a bright time or so much to laugh, but i know i'll never regret my decision that i left.
It is true what Mrs Butler Hathaway said, if u are open for new Influences u'll be changed. U might not realize it in the beginning, but after a while u'll see that nothing is the way it was before..
I've met a lot of People on the way, but i realized, that not everyone is my friend.. I understood what "FRIENDSHIP" really means. I Know now what it means to love someone with Ur whole heart. To be accepted in anyways, doesn't matter how weak u are. To earn the respect u deserve!
There're always People on our way who're cruel and mean. Even so they look on the 1st Impression nice and peacefully, but if u look behind the mask u'll find the opposite side of what they pretend to be. Just be careful that u'rent shaking Hands with the devil just cuz u think its an Angel...
I made my Way without my Family or anyone who could protect me from Danger and meanness. It was good that way..Before i left i was a Slave of myself.Full of Anger and Dreams...I felt on the ground hardly, but it was necessarily to realize that something went wrong. I had to protect myself with my strength...to learn about my Weakness made me stronger.
I had a Conversation last Week and the Person asked me " Don't u miss Ur Country?" Honestly, i don't think so.. its not that i miss the Country I never felt as German. Its the little things i miss sometimes... like good Bread and Coffee, my friends... I know that it would be easy to travel there and have all this...i'm just not ready for that yet...
I know, that when the day arrived and i'm ready to go everything there will be changed every Person i used to know will be different from my Memories.
To be continued...
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